So, it’s October. And I haven’t posted anything since AUGUST! Shame on me. But honestly, I’m not ashamed because life has been moving right along, things have been happening, and sometimes we get busier than we think and need to let go of some things. Jesus reminded us that we can’t take our stuff to heaven as a way to tell us to chill out and focus on what matters–right now that’s school, my health, and my faith.
Here’s a quick update:
- I started my second year of grad school!
- I am TA-ing for a great class who participate so well each day
- I went to San Francisco in September to look at some papers in the GLBT Historical Society’s archives
- It’s still too hot in Texas
Okay. You’re updated.
On a kinda back to school themed thought train, I wanted to write about the importance of writing today. I’m the kind of person who has two planners, PowerSheets, and still has sticky notes all over the apartment because writing is important to me. I recently re-took the Enneagram test because I forgot my type and wanted to do some spiritual work with the Enneagram and found out I’m a 5.
Fives are intellectuals, we like to figure things out; at our best, we’re visionaries, but at our worst that need to know everything leads us inwards and makes us recluses (I have definitely been in that season). And the best way for me to figure things out while not staying in my head is writing. Good old fashioned pen and paper writing. There’s always a pile of scrap paper, a journal, or a sticky notepad hanging out in my apartment with pens littered everywhere.
Because what I’ve learned, is that when I keep what I’m feeling or trying to figure out inside, I implode. I get overwhelmed with knowledge acquisition and typically end up having a feelings meltdown (another thing about Fives is that we aren’t great at emotions and they often overwhelm us because we work hard to avoid them *nervous laugh*). But when I write, I’m able to calm down and see everything in front of me, instead of in the swirling vortex I imagine my brain to be.
Which is why I always keep a pen with me when I do Bible study. The Bible is a hard read y’all. The people who wrote it were stylistically writing in a different way than we contemporarily write. They were speaking to an audience is not us (and many of the New Testament writers thought Christ was coming right back, so they thought they were literally speaking to the last generation of Christians!). So I have questions. I have doubts, concerns, sometimes even arguments.*
And I write them all down. In a never ending love letter to God, I give Them all of my concerns/fears/frustrations/etc. I put them on paper and compare what I’ve written to God’s word. It doesn’t always mean that I come to a quick and easy answer about what I’m thinking about, and honestly I love that. I love that I’m challenged when I read the Bible. What it does mean is that I’m able to see when my questions are answered, and what God is working out in my mind and spirit. It’s not journaling necessarily–sometimes I write in the Bible, sometimes I write on scrap paper, sometimes in a journal proper–but I remember better when I write things down. I can see the trajectory of where and how my faith has grown and faltered (because let’s be real, the doubt is still there sometimes), and use that as a praise report. God is good. God is working in me. God is still speaking.
So friend, write. Even if it’s just your grocery list, or a to-do list. Write things down. Get them out of your head. Make your thoughts, dreams, and worries tangible so you can do something with/about them. Amen?
What I’m Reading: The Sacred Enneagram by Christopher Heuertz and Home Comforts by Cherlyl Mandelson
What I’m Listening to: Turn Up the Quiet by Diana Krall
What I’m Excited About: PowerSheets are coming!! October 25th!
My October PowerSheets:
*If you’re struggling to organize your spiritual life, check out Nancy Ray’s “How to Organize Your Spiritual Life”